Not sure where to start.
It hurts me to watch a brother slowly killing himself with poison.
A smart and creative friend walking on a dead end, believing that it
could lead to anything other than a life of poverty,
sickness and mental anguish. In other words: HELL.
A man still acting like a child, throwing tantrums at the wind.
Swapping all personal power for the false belief that his problems
are caused by circumstances. Life is equal parts suffering and bliss.
Face it, feel it. Stop running from it by getting high.
Swapping all personal power for the false belief that his problems
are caused by circumstances. Life is equal parts suffering and bliss.
Face it, feel it. Stop running from it by getting high.
You probably noticed that I’ve been distancing myself from you lately.
It’s nothing personal, only what I need to do in order to survive.
Doesn’t mean that I don’t think about you often.
I’m sick of hearing about your financial, or hundreds of other problems.
Sick of hearing that you had to sell your furniture to pay the rent, or buy groceries.
Sick of hearing how your son doesn’t love you, or how X betrayed you,
Y kicked you out, or how Z is avoiding you these days.
Life is rough. Full of suffering, it’s brutal. For all of us.
Two years ago I started a business that was doomed for failure.
For a whole year I worked hard as fuck, practically for free. During that time I burned
through all my life savings. Then I lost the business, along with a close friend.
A few weeks later half of my family moved to the other end of the world.
That same summer, my boy died suddenly. Throughout this whole
time, my best friend was killing himself with crack.
The final blow came when my girl died unexpectedly two months ago.
That same week my dad got sick, at one point I thought he was gonna die.
You probably weren’t aware of the last part.
Think of all the other things you’re not aware of.
Things going on with your son, mom or brother.
Life is passing you by my cosmic bro. All because you
chose to escape it, instead of facing it head on.
Stop lying to yourself, thinking that everything will be ok
once you make a bit more money. Once you catch up.
Your life will only get better once you start making real efforts,
creating new habits, and surrounding yourself with positive souls.
Get rid of the parasites around you.
Start a new way of living. This one is obviously not working for you.
For how many decades can you make the same mistake for and
believe that the results will be different?
What do you think I did when all these shit storms crashed down on me?
The only thing I could do. Kept my thoughts as positive as I could.
Forced myself to do things I didn’t necessarily feel like doing.
Working at odd jobs, improving my skills, my mind,
my physical health. Just a little bit every single day.
And that’s what you need to start doing.
Start treating yourself with respect.
Take care of your body, your mind.
Do something that you haven’t done in decades.
Start by getting a fucking job. Work hard.
Even if that job sucks. Know that’s it’s only temporary.
That pain is gonna build character.
Life will reward you in many ways.
You could meet an amazing woman, or just a bunch of cool
people going through the same things as you. That’s where true
power hides, in connecting with other souls. You’re so used to being
around parasites that you can’t even see the truth.
You keep giving the stupid example of working at Tim Horton’s.
The reality is that you should be way more embarrassed to do what
you’re doing for money right now. You have a good heart, a big heart.
That’s why you’re so twisted inside, you keep ignoring that voice.
Start listening to it, it’s the truth. Only a sociopath could do such a
rotten thing and not feel any remorse. CLEARLY NOT YOUR CASE.
As long as you keep going back on the horn, you’re gonna hate yourself.
Deep down you know it’s the sleaziest way any intelligent adult can make a living.
And don’t give me that bullshit that you have no other choice. That’s weak talk.
Victim mentality. And it makes me sick to hear that.
You’re a man. Act like it.
Take full responsibility and move forward with your life.
It’s the only way you’ll ever be able to respect yourself
and kill all the demons that are tormenting you inside.
Don’t think that your family and friends have abandoned you.
They’re just keeping a distance and hoping that some miracle
finally opens your eyes to the fact that life is short as fuck.
It’s too painful to watch someone you care about
slowly destroy every part of their life. And make
the same mistakes over and over again.
I’ll always be there for you brother. But as long as you’re
not making any real efforts, I’ll be a little further than usual.
The day you decide to turn things around, and put in the work,
the sacrifices, the efforts, everyone will magically start reappearing
in your life. Strangers will become attracted to you.
It’s not magic, it’s energy.
Fuck the secret and all this law of attraction bullshit.
Yes there’s some truth in there. But the real thing needed
to activate the secret is hard work, true effort,
discomfort and pain. That’s life.
I really hope that you discover these truths for
yourself. And they become your beliefs.
I love you brother, and still hold on to that vision of
you living your true potential. The way your soul
really wants to live and express itself.
We’re all waiting impatiently for you to return.
To discover your true self.
Hopefully before 2022 😉
Midlifemorphosis 