Here I am, 41 years old. Unemployed, typing this in my kitchen.
Almost one year after quitting my job to start what would become the
biggest home security company in north america.
Except the plan went to shit. We’ll skip the details, but let’s just say that
when putting all your chips on one project, make sure it’s something you
truly believe in, are passionate about OR at least somewhat enjoy.
At the age of 20 I imagined myself very wealthy at 40. It’s not the case, I’m
rich according to many other standards around the world.
Looking from the outside- I’m doing good. Car is payed for, fairly large
house with plenty of potential to make it my dream home.
Plenty of space, big yard, water view….
When I was younger I had envisioned all of this, the house by the water, big yard.
Even the two loves of my life, my pups. Vik, who is an 8 year old Doberman.
And Joon, a 9yr old Rhodesian Ridgeback. They keep me active, happy and full of love and hope. No matter what steamy pile of feces life throws at me.
Every morning I walk them along the waterfront and soak in the beauty of our surroundings, the tall mature trees everywhere, birds chirping, the bright sun
reflecting on the calm waters. It’s serene, and surreal!
Once we get home it’s time for a quick workout,
breakfast, then sh… shower and shave.
This is the morning ritual, and the best way to start my day on a good note.
My loved ones are alive and healthy, my own health is good.I’m fit. Healthy and relatively happy. So what’s the problem?
Why did I even bother putting these words onto a page?
I’m over 100k in debt, my car is 11 years old and my home desperately needs a new
kitchen, bathroom, roof and windows. In the past year I worked for free trying to build this business, which turned out to be an energy-sucking turd from hell.
It almost drained my entire life and retirement savings. As of today, I have enough to survive financially for the next 4-5 months. Over the years I’ve read countless books on success, achievement and self growth. Not to mention the thousands of videos I’ve watched on youtube, and DVD’s.
and keeps me sane and positive when going through rough times.
I’m giving myself a 90 day challenge to write my thoughts every single day and put it out there for the whole world to see (even if no one does!)
This is day 1, and if anyone ends up reading this one day.
If anything resonates with your own life and experiences please share your comments.
I would really love to hear from you.
Midlifemorphosis 